It’s something we get asked from a young age, but usually phrased in what do we want to be. I think who is a better question. Putting emphasis on who and not what might give us an opportunity to raise better humans. Instead of being consumed with an occupational path, we can work more towards who we are and what we have to offer.
I knew exactly what I wanted to be when I grew up. I thought I had a handle on who I was but, I was wrong. It’s not something that is made a priority. We’ve heard of lying and cheating to get into schools and so many other instances where someone was deceitful to get ahead. It doesn’t phase them because that high profile career is the goal and not their moral compass.
Who I am has always been important to me. Who my children are matters. I don’t care what their career is, their sexual preference or where they choose to live as long as I know they are decent human beings. Knowing what you’re willing to fight for, sacrifice for, what you’d endure for it, that’s important. The kind of person… are you generous? Do you open doors for others? Say please, thank you, bless you, you’re welcome? This is what matters.
We get caught up the need to keep the train moving that we don’t live our lives. I was so obsessed with not having enough time but, the time I wasted was time that I had and didn’t use.
I keep thinking of who I am and who I want to be. I am me, first and foremost. I of course love being a mom and the hope of being wife one day. Beyond that, I want a house that I can cook for my family in, that we can make and share memories, we can have barbecues and invite family and friends with games and fun and comradery. I want a career I love and to be the best version of me. When I get older, I want a pit sanctuary, like we planned for older pits to live out their lives.
I want to dance in the rain and go on adventures. I want to stay up late having deep meaningful conversations, I want to have fun and laugh and learn and be spontaneous. I am so ready to continue to grow into the woman I am. To lead my boys by example, proving that you’re never too old to be who you are meant to be.
I’m not concerned with money or things, I care about my soul, their souls. Are we standing up for what’s right? Are we recycling for the future of my grandchildren and their children? Are we living a life that will inspire others? No job title can satisfy that. Success to me is our happiness. If by some chance we make money doing what we love, well, then, that is icing on the cake.
I learn so much about what I want in life as I sit and enjoy my Nana’s company. If my grandchildren can do the same, then I know I did something right. My heart is full right now. Full of love and possibilities. Who I am has a lot to do with it. I am a good woman. I am worthy of wonderful things. I am kind, generous and loyal.
Do you know who you are? Are you even interested? I didn’t ask your title either. Who are you as a person? Would others describe you as you see yourself? Would your children? Mine love me for me…so, I think I’m on the right path. They’re my why afterall.