As I am not currently preoccupied with the hustle and bustle of daily life and have this time with my Nana, I am taking full advantage. This last week I have binge watched many shows with her and I thoroughly enjoy it. I love her, love being around her, always hoping that she’ll rub off on me as much as she can. She is one hell of a woman.
Time, it is more precious than gold. Yet, we take if for granted carelessly. I admit, I do spend more time on social media than I should, although more recently it has been with more purpose, other than that, I am making an effort to spend my time wisely. Before I would spend so much time sleeping just trying to escape my depression or avoid myself. I, thankfully have worked past that phase.
I love being with my kids, listening to how their day went, what happened in school and just what is in their mind. I’ve learned to put my phone down and focus because they deserve my attention and these are the memories I will cherish later on when they have left the nest. A conversation, back rub, whatever, it all gives me quality time and I’m willing to oblige.
Today I started off with good intentions of focusing on me. I did for about an hour and then got distracted. I’ll let it slide this time. But, tomorrow is different. It is imperative I work on other areas of myself. I have books I need to read and of course, schoolwork. I have 5 weeks left. Can’t lose it all at the last minute.
When you love someone or something, you make time for it. It is the little things that usually go a long way. We are living on borrowed time and hesitation only costs us more than we have to spare. Sometimes we just have to take leap of faith.
Have you thought about what motivates you? I hope you’re one of the reasons. If not, start there. I suggest you spend time with all you love. Everything counts as long as your heart and attention are focused in the right direction. I think Nana and I are better than we’ve ever been. Even Miah and I are. I enjoy making Nana lunch and dinner and getting her pills. I know it sounds silly but, I do have pride in taking care of her.
Spend a moment thinking. Is this the life you want? If not, what are you doing about it? Every second counts. I’m laying here gleefully writing and contemplating what’s on the agenda tomorrow.
Above all else, I am thankful for everything I have and the opportunities I have coming up. I feel like a broken record but, I have to show my appreciation. Sorry all, I guess today took a lit out of me. I keep falling asleep writing this. So, I know it isn’t the best, I totally could have written more but, I see now that it is best to quit while I’m ahead then continue to write gibberish from my fingers touching the wrong keys. I’m silly, I know.
So, goodnight all. We will chat again tomorrow. Hopefully you’ve made progress by then. Tomorrow is a fresh start for endless possibilities. The day is what we make of it. Take time for what matters and do what makes your heart sing. I dare you. Lol xo