Don’t ever tell this woman that she can’t do something! This morning all of the things I needed to accomplish was too long for me to realistically believe I would get it done in timeframe I was given. I finished ALL of my schoolwork, on time and received 100% on both of my tests. I only have to reply to classmates by Sunday but other than that, my work is done. I was able to get my thoughts together to submit 3 topics for my informative speech and my professor let me run with my first choice. Not sure it was my first choice, I just threw all three on the paper but, it is okay, I feel confident that I will be able to speak well on the subject. I don’t know how I did everything I needed to and with an hour and a half to spare before the night is through. Some minor things did not get finished but, they will be completed tomorrow and no harm, no foul.
Nana is still being her stubborn self but I am not letting up. I made sure that the Physical Therapist reiterated what I have been saying so that she understands the severity of the instructions I have been given. We had a tele doc appointment and finally, a doctor that was competent and patient with us. We were told that she has a crushed vertebrae in her spine. It is considered a broken back and a neurologist is who braced my Nana. We have to go get an IV infusion that should relieve the pain and quicken the healing process otherwise the alternative to surgery is them injecting a cement like material (it is not cement) into that vertebrae to fill it back up and give it some structure. The doctor is not sure if she is a candidate for that but he said that he would look into it. It is crazy to be the one that everyone is looking to for answers but, Nana just doesn’t know what to ask for and she gets caught up on telling stories instead of relaying important fact related to what is being discussed. I will say that we have had some pretty good laughs in these past 24 hours. I am so happy that she is back with me and I know that she is being well taken care of and loved.
I am tired but, I knew that God would give the strength to get through what I needed to do. I should be sleeping because I will be up in less than 4 hours to give my Nana her next dosage of her pain meds and then again at 7am. We have a packed day ahead of us and I am super excited to just enjoy the day with family. I need an escape and maybe this will do. I am choosing me. It’s not always the easiest choice but, it is the right one for where I am at. I am treating myself the way I want others to treat me. I never would have thought that I would love myself as much as I do. I thank God every day for showing me how and for never giving up on me along the way. Y’all, I am through 6 weeks of this semester with only 10 more to go. Two more weeks and I will be halfway done….and yet, I have not lost any weight. I plan on taking lots of pictures and need to get my ass in shape. I have a haircut and color that I need to figure out, my hair is almost to my waist right now, it hasn’t been that long since I was pregnant with Miah. I have plans to make and goals to crush. I am SO freaking excited. I want to give up, something fierce actually, but, the fire inside me won’t let me do it, not this time. Somehow, some way, even if I am inching toward the finish line, I am going to reach it. I can’t wait.
Well, it is a shorter post today because I am ready to get some sleep. I have to get it when I can…. like having a baby… lol, except mine talks back. Haha! Don’t ever doubt yourself my friends, you can do whatever you set your mind to, probably even more. I have. It isn’t easy but it is totally worth it, just like you. God created us exactly how we are, we have to accept that…. and change the things that we may not like. We’ve got this and the right people will support you, even if it is from miles away. Find yourself, find your people and find a way to make your mark. xoxo