It’s my momma’s birthday 🎂. She didn’t want a party or anything since Nana isn’t 100%. Miah and I still went over with some chocolate and coca cola and a dilly bday card. We got to play with big old Diesel and just spent a little time. Us adults had a Jaeger bomb before I left and damn…. when I got home I was buzzing. I haven’t felt that way in a while. I made dinner and then went and sat on the porch enjoying the evening feeling so relaxed. Oh my goodness, just what I needed. It didn’t last long enough though. Eating dinner killed it.
I had such a hard time going to bed last night. Didn’t close my eyes until after 5am this morning. It totally messes up my day because then I sleep later than I’d like to. Hopefully I can fall asleep sooner tonight. I don’t know though. My brain 🧠 needs a shut off switch.
Big things are coming. I can feel it. I am going to have to make some big moves, big decisions that are greatly going to impact our lives. I’m not nervous because I know I can do this. I’ve known all along. I just have to keep believing that everything will work out the way it is supposed to….and it will.
As for school, I am 3 weeks down and 13 more to go. I think I’m going to apply to the internship. The worst they can say is no but, I don’t want to always wonder what if. I’m not afraid to fly anymore. So, let’s see what happens. I am nervous and excited and super hopeful. I am working on my first speech. Thankfully this one is about me so it should be easy yet, I’m terrified. I have to use props and then explain the meaning of them as well. Ay…. and since we aren’t in class, I have to give the speech in front of family as well as record it. Ugh.
Dude, I am so far out of my comfort zone now that I can’t even find my way back. Every day brings something new and I am forced to deal with it, conquer it, learn from it…whatever. Who would have guessed I’d be here? I didn’t know I had all of this in me. I surprise myself on the daily.
Well, I am all over the place as per usual. I’m doing my best to be the best for my loved ones. Showing up no matter what. What I would give to be sharing this with someone. Anyways, I don’t want go down the rabbit hole and then be up all night. I can’t wait for this to be over so I can go out and enjoy life in a way I never have. I am ready! Okay, okay…. goodnight all! ♡