It is so frustrating to not have the tools you need to get your work done. My laptop is suffering from the blue screen of death and decides to work when it wants to. Yesterday it was fine for my schoolwork and tonight I battled with it because an assignment is due at midnight. I finally had to give up and do the assignment on my phone which is so limiting. I did not turn in an assignment that I was very proud of because I didn’t have ability to toggle back and forth from my reply to what the assignment requirements were. I mean, I know I will get a decent grade but that was not to my standards by any means. So, the laptop is dying and my wi-fi is ridiculously slow. Sometimes I feel like all of this is attempting to prevent me from completing this semester. Then I remember that what doesn’t kill me makes me stronger and each situation like this that arises gives me the opportunity to exercise my newly found patience. That’s what I get for waiting until the last minute as well. I should have had everything done earlier in the week so that if a problem came up, I had time to arrange something. I can’t do that at ten o’clock at night.
Other than that, I heard my Nana talking to my mom today and saying how thankful she is for me and all I have and am doing for her. She said that she doesn’t know what she would do without me. I can explain how wonderful those words are to hear. I never thought I would be apply to repay her for everything she has done in my life yet, I am managing to make a little dent. It’s silly how much she thanks me. I tell her all of the time that it is not necessary, I am honored to be able to to be in this position. Speaking of family, my nephew, Mr. Zander is laughing now. I was able to face call with my brother and my little Sweetheart laughed for his Auntie, oh, it made my heart swell. Auntie’s Chelsearina was being parmesan as per usual. I still got to see her and remind her how much her Auntie loves her. Allie is becoming quite the artist, she loves to draw and now she is doing portraits of famous people. She is so active just like her daddy. Here, me and the kiddos are okay. They are cuddling up and asleep right now. Raiyhn juts can’t get enough of her brudder.
My moments of silence have been very rewarding lately. I soak it up and use the time to take a breath and thank God for where I am at in my life. Oh, I almost forgot, I was FINALLY able to watch Second Act! I knew that was my movie, I knew I was going to love it and I was not wrong. I cried like a big old baby! That movie is so me and what I am looking to do. I just hope I don’t lose sight of what really matters. I don’t think I will because I have already been there and done that. I know my worth now, I understand appreciate how much my family adds value to my life and if it weren’t for their love and support, I would be a pile of mush. Near or far, their effects on me are incredible. I am going to succeed. I am going to have a career I love and show people that age isn’t anything but a number. Talent can’t be taught in school, it is innate and experience brings out the best in you. I have soaked up so much knowledge in the jobs that I have had, I have always pushed the envelope and expanded my position in ways that allowed me the creative freedom to do some extraordinary things. I can’t wait to be able to utilize all I have to assist other people and turn their business into the brand that they’ve been dreaming of. I want to help people project who they are and why their business is the best choice for their consumers. I have so many ideas, I am really very punny… lol
I didn’t go the route I had planned when I was younger and naïve. There were many lessons that I’ve learned along the way and opportunities that brought me to where I am. Had I not gone through any of that, I would probably be a high school history teacher right now with years under my belt. Teen Stephie wanted the husband, kids, white picket fence and that fairytale life. Silly girl. This woman embraces the messy and welcomes a bit of chaos. I want the husband and my kids and whatever puts a roof over our heads so that the boys and pups are taken care of and a career that both me and the hubby love. I want to always push the boundaries and never settle for anything. Being comfortable doesn’t look good on me anymore, I don’t think it ever truly did…. I am a Gemini after all. I think that teaching children is enriching but, doing the same thing day in and day out is not my style. I like to do what I know but have it changed up on the daily. I like a challenge. I want to outdo the me of yesterday each and every day. When I go home to take care of my family, I want to know that I had a kick-ass day and the next will be equally fulfilling. Mediocre is out my friends, we are heading to the top and we won’t stop until we are there.
Anyways, I guess I wrote a lot today. I still have so much more running through my head but, I think I might call it a night. I missed two of my shows this week and need to get caught up before Allie calls and tries to ruin one for me. Haha…. Well, I hope you enjoyed my rambling today. As you can tell, I am in good spirits. I know everything is going to be okay and God is working in my favor. You have to believe it to receive it and I am a believer. Goodnight and Happy Friday all… we’ll chat tomorrow. xo