Who decides who we are to be and what we are to do? I think it is between us and God but for some reason, at some point in time, someone thought it their right to establish a social order, a pecking order and people unknowingly got behind it. Since it seems to work for some, nothing seems to change. Now I have no problem with the people that worked hard to get what they have but, I don’t understand how when people get to the top then they don’t want to share in their success. Now I am not talking about giving it all away but, pay it forward you know? I have worked for well, all of my jobs, where the people at the top made a lot of money but everyone else was struggling to get by. That does not make sense to me. You have more loyal employees when their minds are at ease as well. When they don’t have to stress over what’s for dinner or if they have enough gas in their tank until payday, they have more time and energy to spend on their work. Doesn’t that make sense?
I’m sorry, I finished watching Snowpiercer for class and it has my mind racing. I just don’t get how they had to keep the people in the tail in such horrible conditions and think it was okay. I can’t wait to get myself in a position where I am able to give back, where I can lend a hand to help make life easier on the people I know. I want to use my education, my experience, to assist others that are working to break the cycle, that are tired of not getting what they deserve. I know I am never going to be a millionaire and I am okay with that. I just want to be happy and inspire others to find their happy. I don’t want to live in the tail and stay there. You know what I mean?
Today, the weather was so beautiful outside. I sat on the deck with my Nana and just listened to the water, there was actually waves and it was peaceful. I felt a cool breeze as the sun hit me, it was perfect. That’s what I want, I want to feel the sun, I want brightness to shine on me so that I never feel like I am in the dark again. I know that nothing is going to come to me easily but, that’s okay because everything is sweeter when you’ve earned it. Hard work, persistence, that’s what fuels my fire. Hey, in yoga, I may not be able to get everything down just yet but I haven’t given up and I can stretch a lot further than I could just a couple of weeks ago. I am stoked and look forward to what I am capable of doing in a few more weeks. The sense of peace I feel breathing in and out while accomplishing a difficult sequence, it’s invigorating. I’ve learned that as long as I don’t give up and I try my best, then I am on my way.
I’m much stronger than my mother, I’ve pushed through so many barriers that she was afraid to embark upon. I have beat odds that were meant to break me. I am undefinable and a little bit of a mystery. I won’t be a cliché or confined to what someone’s opinion of me is. My story is still being written and nothing is set in stone until I put the pen to the pad. My day is not done until I come and process it right here. We can’t keep things the way they’ve always been just because that’s how it has always been done. We know better than that and we can do better. So, why are you dead set on only being what “they” tell you you can be? You’re better than that, you’re more than that. You always have been and that’s why they try to hold you down. God gave you wings so you could fly, don’t let them be clipped. Fly baby, fly… those that truly love you, unconditionally, they’ll offer to be the wind beneath your wings, they’ll support you no matter what. If you love something, you let it go, if it’s yours, it will come back. If they won’t let you go, if they won’t let you fly…. it’s not about you. You do you BooBoo…. You’ll quickly learn who your real tribe is. Some may need time to adjust but, to be with you, they know that they will have to.
Break out of what’s holding you back…. your future is waiting!