Doing Things You Don’t Want to Do

I can’t write much today because I didn’t give myself enough time to do everything I needed and I am rushing to finish watching a movie that I just cannot get into – Silver Linings Playbook. It is definitely not a movie I would choose to watch, the main character is all over the place and giving me anxiety. I guess that’s part of pushing through and making it happen.

Today was a very very long day and we got some news that we aren’t happy with but we have to do what we have to do. Life isn’t always easy and although I like having the freedom to choose, I understand and respect the responsibility of doing what is required. I honestly don’t know how I am getting everything done but I am and I only hope that I can keep this momentum going. I feel so much right now and I can’t determine what it’s meant to tell me.

I know that cheat sheets are so not the way to go but, in life, don’t you ever wish we could use one? There are some things I wouldn’t mind the answer to, not necessarily the details, just a simple yes or no so I can plan accordingly. I guess I’ll just keep being patient instead.

Well, I have wasted 5 minutes and need to rush back. If I have time I will try to write more after I submit my assignment. More tomorrow!

Okay, so, although I am probably going to fall asleep typing this, I had to come back and update. I finished the movie and I am ashamed that I judged a book by its cover. Silver Lining Playbook is a movie I can relate to more than I am proud to admit. It had me crying towards the end. While I think that it was frantic a lot and made me anxious, it was worth the watch.

I’ve been doing what I want for some months now and I quite like it but, I know that is not reality. I think it may be time to do some things I have been hesitant about. Just thinking about about that stuff makes me feel like I can’t breathe. I don’t want to be so narrow-minded, one track mind that I am not open to see the whole picture like I say I am.

Well, I am typing between sentences and not sure I am making sense at this point. Damn, I have a good train of thought going too, but, I am so tired, my fingers are not doing what my brain is instructing them to do. So for reals this time. Goodnight!

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