We’ve all heard good attracts good and positive vibes bring about more positive vibes and there is truth in that. I’ve been believing in many things lately, honestly, having no clue how they were going to transpire BUT, by the grace of God, slowly yet surely, I’m seeing the pieces come together. Opportunities are befalling me, outcomes are working out better than I could have asked for and although nothing is perfect, my faith over fear is bringing me out of obstacles with ease.
Keeping up the positive energy isn’t as easy as you may think. It takes determination and I’m constantly fighting an uphill battle because it is so simple to resort to old habits. As the year ends, I am noticing an energy wanting me to push on the brakes a bit. I know in my heart that I can’t do that. I have to bite the bullet and get moving on some things, like tomorrow. Time waits for no woman! Planning for next year is like a shot in the dark. We don’t know what we are working with but we must forge ahead as if nothing has changed. Just be ready to detour if it’s necessary. Registration for Winter and Spring sessions begin for me on the 4th. I have to call a counselor and work out the plan moving forward and then file my FAFSA for the 2021-2022 school year. I am nervous even though I’ve killed it in my classes this semester. I don’t like committing to something and then changing direction and with the opportunities that I have available to me, I may have to re-organize some things. So much is in the air. I can’t procrastinate though, opportunities are just that…. what I have, what’s tangible, that’s what I have to work with.
I love that my energy is rubbing off on those I love. Nana was saying today just how great of a mood my son is in, and I’ve got my momma thinking and acting in a different way. I never thought I would see the day but she said that she listened to what I said and handled her own in a situation she was in today. I couldn’t be a prouder daughter. My connections, my people, I am pouring as much love into them that I possibly can. Loving myself has allowed me to share a happier, more fulfilling love with those around me. It’s also shown me what I want and don’t want and although those lists are constantly being edited, I have a clearer picture of what that all should look like. A smile is contagious and I’m channeling Joy a lot more these days. Sadness tries to rear her head and I push her away, she has no place here anymore. She does bring up silly memories and for those I am grateful… but, that’s it.
Christmas is coming and I am going all in to be inspired by the Christmas Spirit. I’ve had some awesome help and I think I may be able to pull it off. I just keep telling myself this a detour as well and I’ll be back on track soon. Happy thoughts, find your happy thoughts Peter! Lol
I’m in a good place mentally and I am very thankful for that. I wake up blessed and go to sleep grateful. Every time I wake up in the middle of the night (which is usually quite often), I talk to God until I fall back to sleep. I’ve learned a lot from school this semester, not just about me but all three subjects that I am taking. Mass Communications made me think things through from a different perspective and taught me how all of the media has influenced culture, how much American culture influences other countries in such a profound way. I have a greater appreciation for all of the different types of media, I feel like Andy in the Devil Wears Prada being schooled by Miranda Priestly about her cerulean sweater…. in a good way though. It’s a positive experience to be asked to look beyond the tip of your nose, to take the blinders off and see what the whole world has to offer you and not what’s just in your backyard. All of this is priceless and life changing. My world is forever altered in the best way possible.
I’m letting my light shine in hopes it might light the way for someone else that is having a hard time finding the light at the end of their tunnel. When you level up, I think it’s your responsibility to bring others with you or leave breadcrumbs at the very least! This little light of mine, I’m going to let it shine… let it shine, let it shine, let it shine.