Now that I am confident in who I am and what it is that I want out of life, I have noticed that I am more bold in my every day life. I am carrying myself differently, I am more deliberate in my intentions and definitely with my prayers. I went from feeling guilty when asking God for something to now with all the thanks I give him daily and proof that I am taking what he gives me and making beautiful progress with it that, I can be bold in my asking. I know that I deserve good things and as long as I don’t ask for anything ridiculous or beyond what I need, I have no doubt that somehow, some way, it will come to fruition.
I decided to stop procrastinating with my schoolwork this week so that I can truly see if taking on an online class it in my best interest. I am almost completely done with one class and already submitted an assignment for another. It feels good to be on top of it and not waiting until the last minute. It’s crazy that my government class today referenced mass communications and statistics in the chapter I just read and those are the other two classes I am taking. Everything just so happens to be falling into place nicely.
There are some things that seem to be eluding me, I know it’s for a reason, I know that God’s working it out for me and in due time it will all click. I’m just ready for more than this. I know that I can take on more. I know that I can be more. I know that if given the chance, I can be who I am meant to be. Sometimes, it just takes a leap of faith. I have to remain positive and keep pushing forward and that’s what I am doing. I didn’t get here overnight and I have learned patience along the way.
I think I am ready to start getting out of the house more than just the grocery store though. I want to grab a bite to eat and a drink. I want to go to the gym. I’m up all hours of the night, so, why not go then and get my fitness on? Haha… All of the things I want to do, can do, should do, and the fact that I am strong enough to do it, and alone if I have to, who is this woman? Sorry, I know my post is a bit more lighthearted than you’ve come to expect but, life is good right now. Again, not perfect, there are many things I would change, I would not however, change myself. I’m a bad thang, fine as hell, thick as fuck…. oh my gosh, lol!