I am working hard to get all of my ducks in a row in my life. Along with that, I am trying to take my people with me and have them do the same. It’s not an easy task for myself and then to encourage others to do the same. If I am defined by who I associate with then if I am leveling up, I’ll have them do the same. It’s easier to work towards something when you aren’t the only one. I can feel my schoolwork getting harder and I’m losing my ability to focus but, I am putting in the work and time will tell if I can keep it up.
I have a good head on my shoulders and I am a better momma than I give myself credit for. I do not by any means have all the answers or am I perfect but, I do a damn good job and unless you’re perfect, I suggest you not cast stones. I have my issues, Jeremiah and I have bumps in the road and that’s okay. Things are shaping up and we’ve got a plan, we are in this together and we are learning as we go. His grades are at an all time high and he is not missing school, now, to be fair, I am home every day so I make sure he attends but, like his momma, he is putting in the work and getting it done. This distant learning experience has also taught him that he doesn’t want online schooling, that traditional school is for him. He now understands that part of going to school is the ability to socialize with friends and some of the freedom he received from being in high school (hanging with friends after school, walking to McDonald’s, etc.). Everything happens for a reason right? We are finally on the same page with school and I couldn’t be happier. It’s exciting that he is enrolled in a college course for Culinary and he blows me away by the stuff he knows. He is getting frustrated with math but I have to remind him that he is smart and he needs to give himself more credit than he does. I think he gets his self doubt from his momma. I don’t want it to control him like I’ve allowed it to have such a hold on me.
I didn’t have as much time to sit around and let my mind get the best of me. Don’t get me wrong, it’s always on my mind but, I had so many other things I had to take care of that I couldn’t live in my head worrying about things I can’t control…. I’ll save that for when I am trying to sleep tonight (funny, not funny). The topic of going back to school is on the table and so these next few weeks will be interesting. Miah and I are taking it day by day and not trying to overwhelm ourselves with what ifs. Anyways, it’s getting late and I still have a couple hours of Statistics to finish, if I can’t figure it out, I have to login to a class tomorrow. That should be fun.
Are your ducks in a row? Are you organizing yourself for success? Everything is up in the air right now and it’s easy to get lost or confused, frustrated and tired. We have to remember that it’s okay to take a breath and regroup. We are human and there is no manual for living our lives. The more I implement systems in my life, set and keep standards, the easier it is for me to accomplish the tasks that I have created and also enjoy my “let loose” time knowing that nothing is slipping through the cracks. I told you I even planned meals out for my last shopping trip. It was faster and cheaper than normal because I went strictly off the list. I made two dishes I’ve never made before and they were delicious, proof that having a plan and not always riding by the seat of your pants is a good thing. I thrive off structure and while my mind may be chaotic, I’m positioning everything else in my life not to be. I’m working smarter not harder and with a purpose.
Think good statistical thoughts for me…. oh my goodness. Until tomorrow.