Kind-of living in my own little world 🌎 right now. I’m stuck in my head working things out. I got all my schoolwork done but, that’s about all I accomplished today. I don’t have much to say here as I’m so confused myself.
I am very emotional and struggling for a good breath. I know this is a phase as I’ve been here plenty of times before, it never gets easier though. I feel like a fool and starting to see why I get told for being such a smart person, I’m really dumb sometimes. I live life guided by my heart. All I want is to love and be loved. I think of my age and where I’m at and I can’t get anyone to commit to me. What does that say about me? And now…. I don’t want just anyone. Which means, this is my life now. I can fulfill my purpose in other areas but not the two that matter to me. If that’s the case then. I dont know what the purpose of anything else is. It doesn’t matter if you can’t share it with the ones you love. I am beyond blessed for Miah and Raiyhn, they are the reasons I dont quit.
I’m not feeling this tonight. My son’s asleep and I need this time to think. May tomorrow bring the peace I need.