God always knows what to do if you just let Him do it. I not only am getting the peace of mind that I needed but, I’m learning valuable lessons as well. I know what really matters. What I want and do sometimes don’t match up. My way of thinking isn’t always the most logical. I mean, it makes sense to me but, it’s not to everyone.
I keep thinking about my age and want I want out of life and then I go back to what I’m supposed to have and don’t. I can’t do that anymore. It’s not getting me anywhere. Supposed to and what’s really happening are two different things. What can I realistically make happen? I can be the amazing woman God created me to be. I can give my family a happy home. I can support them through thick and thin. I will mess up along the way but, we will get through it because we love each other. At the end of the day, our love for one another is enough. That’s what I’ve shown.
I can’t convince anyone else to do something they don’t want. True love never dies. No matter how much you wish it would sometimes, no matter how you remember things, the way you feel, that can’t be changed. You can ignore it, you can deny it, whatever you like. But, deep down, you know. So, I know. So what? I’ll keep knowing but I choose to live my life instead of holding my breath forever.
I am surrounded by love. Love of family, friends, and others. I am witnessing the beauty of life, of being about it instead of talking about it. It’s hard work to walk away from your comfort zone but if it’s preventing you from reaching your final destination, it’s the only thing to do.
Knowing that all you do comes from a place of good is a wonderful feeling. I don’t wish ill on others, I don’t intentionally cause pain, I do everything with the best in mind. I’ve mixed things up when I’ve been out of sorts, but, my core, the who I am, that has never changed and those that know me, know that. No one can break that wall. That’s the one thing I’ve always been proud of about myself. I am a good woman.
Blessings upon blessings are befalling me. I am outgrowing parts of my life to fit into others that are coming my way. I am not living in a place of lack anymore. I have so much more than I could ask for. I am excited for everything else that’s yet to come. My heart is so happy, I am happy.
I showed up for me. I thought I was down for the count and I kept getting back up, I never stopped, I didn’t get counted out. God has a complicated way of teaching me things or my stubbornness pushes Him to these extremes. Either way, I was shown that when I think and feel all alone, I have me. I can do all things through Him because He strengthens me. Like I said, I’m living a blessed day. My cup runneth over.