I’m ready for what’s headed my way, I’m ready for what I am about to do. I am confident in myself and the future. I am steadfast in the goals and dreams I have set for myself, for my family, for this life. I am not that unsure girl anymore, I have turned into the woman I am meant t to be.
I feel so different, I wish you could see it on my more. Again, if I kept up with exercising and eating healthy, it would only be a matter of time. That’s the one area in .y life where my focus needs more focus. I know I have gone through a transformation and I don’t need validation. I am enough.
This next month is going to be huge. So many changes heading our way. The beginning of school, Miah’s bday, a couple of other special bdays, and hopefully a few other things. August is going to be the best month of 2020 thus far. I am happy and healthy, I have God working hard in my favor, I am one blessed woman.
Things happen for a reason. As I gain more confidence in myself, I am slowly reaching out to my people, I know that although I am enough, life is not always sunshine and rainbows, and it’s important to have a strong support system. Now that I’ve proven to myself that I can go it alone, I don’t want to do it alone anymore. I am missing some special people in my life. I miss all the silly moments and just being “us”. I am grateful for what I’ve grown through.
For me, every day is a test and today I passed. I did something for someone else. I saw something and wanted to panic but instead kept my cool all day. I reminded myself of my happy mantra and come to find out, it turned out to be nothing at all. My mind is in a good place and able to take in information, examine it and come to a rational conclusion. I have learned to push pass my ego when looking at situations and not turn everything about me. Although my thoughts and feelings are relevant and important, sometimes, I am to be a good listener, show empathy, see things from another’s perspective. I’m still learning this.
All in all, I’m in a healing place. I don’t feel like I’m on edge all of the time. My breath although not full, is not labored. I love myself, it’s kind of unbelievable all of the good things I think and tell myself on the daily. It’s life changing and I never want to be any different. When my heart starts to hurt, I quickly remind myself how lucky I am to be alive that I can feel that pain. I am blessed that I was able to experience this day and if I wake tomorrow, it’s another day to be the best me I can be. Whatever is coming my way, I’m ready. With an open minded and open heart, I welcome it.