Tonight is for me, no long post, no reminiscing or making sense of the world. I am drinking and laughing and watching movies and feeling good. I haven’t let my hair down so to speak in such a while and tonight I am doing just that.
Sometimes I feel like I don’t matter, that I am invisible and nothing will ever feel good again. I need to get out of my head and just enjoy being and that’s what I am doing. I want to continue to laugh and be and not dif deep in my brain and heart and truly face where I am at and what I am missing. I know what I am missing, I know what my heart needs but, I don’t have it and my head needs a break.
So, that’s it for tonight. I am self soothing in a different way this evening! Salud!