Have you ever wondered how you got here? Right where you are at this very moment? Think of all the good and bad and in between. All of the right choices and wrong choices. Then realize that if even one thing had turned out differently, you would be in this moment but not where you are currently at.
For some, changing our past sounds like the answer, but, to those that know, we can only appreciate and accept the past. We can however, change our future. We hold the keys to the kingdom. Each moment, we have the power to determine if we will choose happy or sad, good or bad and anything else. I’ve read a lot of times where someone stubs their toe getting up in the morning, they have a choice, understand that their toe hurts and get over or to choose to be in a bad mood all day. The choice is theirs. The bad mood, it can affect others but, none more than you. Shouldn’t we always make the decision to shrug off the bad so we can welcome in the good?
I’m laying here filled with peace. Have all my dreams come true? No. Am I where I want to be? No. So how come Ms. Overthinker is not stressing? It’s because I know I am closer to having everything I deserve than I was yesterday. I am making choices to impact me in a good way and I’m pushing out all the bad energy. When I allow myself to be happy, it consumes me and then there’s no room for any other emotions. I have so much faith in God and in me. What’s meant for me will find a way.
I keep getting signs that a big decision is coming my way. This decision will change the course of my life. Even though I don’t know what it is yet, I know that much to be true. I’m thankful that I’ve received the signs though, I understand that I need to be in a place of peace so that I take all the factors into consideration. I cannot and will not revert back to Chicken Little. I must be sure that I remain comfortable in my own skin and aware that I can do all things through Christ whom strengthens me.
I don’t feel so broken anymore. My pieces are coming together. I’m still a couple short but, that’s out of my hands. My heart is full and my dreams are big and I know I am worthy of what’s coming my way. I’ve put in the work and I will continue to do so. You know, stopping to step back and see how far I’ve come, it helps so much. I have stopped all my nervous triggers. I give thanks all day, every day. I’m not stressing about tomorrow which gives me time to enjoy today.
Believing in something that you can’t see, that you can only feel is hard sometimes. I wonder every once in a while if I’m on the right track or if I’m just kidding myself. Then I remember, I rather believe in something than nothing. I trust my intuition, I’ve got a good head on my shoulders. So, I’ll continue to believe, because I never want to stop feeling good about myself and this journey. Moments like this are meant to be savored. I know where I’ve been, I know what I’ve gained and lost along the way, but, I always kept myself…even if I was broken and defeated. Those wounds are healing and the woman rising from the ashes, well, you’re going to want to know her.