The mixed emotions I’ve been harboring for the past few days have waned. I’m kind of emotionless at the moment and pushing to be on the mend and in my positive state of mind once again.
I’m not sad or mad or confused it’s more like in deep thought. Allowing my emotions to cloud my judgement is not always a good thing and I think with where I’m at, seeing things for what they are instead of what I want them to be is of great value. Don’t get me wrong, I will always want things to work out for the best but right now, when looking back, seeing things from only my perspective will land me right back where I started. I’ll do almost anything to avoid that.
I was reminded that when upset, or when things don’t go my way, I tend to see what I’m missing instead of what I have. It’s important to me now to daily list out what’s good in my life, what I have, what’s mine. This is something I find to be easily fixable. If you believe that everything happens for a reason then when you don’t get that job or the trip you’ve planned for months is cancelled, you can look at the situation and know it just wasn’t meant to be. Better things are headed your way.
The only thing that I would add is to not persuade someone’s feelings. If they didn’t get the job they’ve been praying for, yes, I believe it wasn’t meant for them but, they are allowed to be bummed. They are allowed their feelings. Support doesn’t have to come with a opinion unless it’s asked for.
I’m working on pulling out the positives from my every day life. It was easier last week than this but that just shows me that it’s needed even more this week. I understand that when things don’t come easy, that’s when you must fight harder to keep them. I’ve worked too hard to get where I am at this point to throw it away from one bad day. I hit a wall but, I must push harder this week to get back to where I was. I lost steam but, the boat never stopped. I have to do double time to catch up. You learn more when things are tough. You separate the strong from the weak, the committed from the players, doers from the talkers. I know which side of the fence I’m on.
This phase, it’s just a phase. A mere setback but nothing worth not trying for. I’m feeling the positive and praying for tomorrow to be a better day. I’ve got so much going on in my head and I don’t want to quit. For that, I am proud of myself. So, I have to take today for what it is. I learned valuable lessons living in my head today. Instead of having that yucky feeling like the bottom was going to fall out of my boat, I feel a sense of calm.
How you see things, that’s what you project out into the world, that’s your vibe. People can see it on you, it’s what you attract and it could have a major impact. Knowing all that, I choose good, and to believe in second chances and trying again. I root for the underdog because they fought much harder to get where they are at. They never gave up on their dream. I know what that’s like.
Against many odds, against what people say, I will get to where I am going and I’ll do it my way.