I woke up from a very real dream, very personal and it was like I was there. So, obviously, I woke up with a smile. I made sure that before I even sat up, I declared that it was going to be a great day and good things would come my way. I was up before 7am.
Since I was up, I was talking with my mom and grandma and scrolling through Facebook, when right before 8am I noticed that church was starting online. I of course joined in! Everything was spot on today, worship was wonderful and Pastor Obed’s message was right on point for me. He was speaking about the bounce back and how we will always bounce back from what the devil is trying to throw at us, even when he gets tired out, we will still continue to bounce back.
He said that it’s a man’s heart that plans his way but it’s the Lord who directs his step. I think this fits with what I have been saying the last few days. I can have an idea of where I want to go, but if it doesn’t fit with what God has in store for me, it’s not going to happen. He will guide me to what’s meant for me. I have to continue to have faith. I also heard something on TikTok today that said as long as I have faith, in can be faith with even some doubt, but, if the faith is the size of a mustard seed, it can move mountains, I just have to believe and speak whatever it is into existence. Tonight I am continuing my faith for what I want, and asking God to move mountains to make it come true.
I have been praying to hone in on my purpose, what I am supposed to do as a career, as my next move for my life. I had so many ideas it overwhelmed me. Something kind of came to me today and it makes perfect sense. It’s so me and is absolutely something that I would excel at. It will be a lot to undertake and I’m going to have to lean on some of my people, but, then, that fits right in with what it is I want to do. If I can make this work, it’s something that has the potential to blow-up and spread. No bullshit, I am coming into my own.
I am standing on my own two feet, I have an inner happiness that negative vibes can’t touch. I am mentally capable of what lies ahead of me. I’m not holding my breath anymore but, I’m not giving up on my promises either. I am doing what’s right for me, what makes my soul sing. My words are not being mixed and I am speaking from a place of understanding and certainty instead of searching for the right words to say. I’m not confused, I’m not unsure, I am full of power. I am not required to have all of the answers, I am allowed to make mistakes, I can do all things through Christ whom strengthens me.
I am Stephie, hear me roar! Haha! I feel like I can run a marathon (not really….my heart would jump out of my body!), I feel like I could touch the sky. I am mentally in the right place, I am still working on my soul and feel it’s time to put some focus on my physical appearance. I can’t wait for the hair salon to open back up! Momma needs a haircut and some color! I am going to make more of an effort to work out with my son when he does and watch what I eat (I mean, eat healthy and not just watch the junk as I eat it…haha). I can’t wait for my outward appearance to mimic how I feel on the inside. Wow, when that happens….watch out world! You think I look good now, I’ll be unstoppable! Lol