I Love Me is Enough

Today was a whirlwind of a day but, I have never loved myself more. I was driving just a bit ago and I heard the tale end of a song saying that I’m a 10 out of 10 even when I forget… the song struck a chord and I looked it up to hear it. Of course, it was a song by Demi Lovato called I Love Me. I listened to all of it with a huge grin on my face. Demi Lovato just gets me and this is the song I needed to hear right now. If you haven’t heard it, I implore you to listen. It says, I wonder when I love me is enough and, I’m a black belt when I’m beating up on myself. The most important lyrics to me is the I wonder when I love me is enough.

I am notorious at looking for outside affirmations to feel complete. Needing others approval to validate my worth, my reason for being. Crazy when you read me say that I know I am a good person and loyal and everything else. If I know these things then why look outward for all that can be answered if I would just look within? This is what I am working out and I am finally realizing that I am doing things all wrong.

I am feeling confident in my skin tonight, happy with the woman that is writing the words you’re reading. So freaking excited to wake up tomorrow and be me. I’m learning that everything I need is inside of me… I just have to listen to myself. I have been strong for my family through this whole ordeal of my Nana being in the hospital and haven’t lost my cool. I’ve been the levelheaded one. Had anything been different, I would probably be relying on others and allowed to lose my shit. Not this time. My hand was forced and I rose to the challenge.

I want to dance around and just be free…celebrate this new me. I know I will have my chance soon. Everything is falling into place. I believe in what’s to come, I know it’s meant for me.

So, lots of feel good tonight. You can probably see the hearts and smiles all around my writing. To answer the question to the song, I wonder when I love me is enough…. well ladies and gents, that is TONIGHT!

I LOVE ME!

Flipping through all of these magazines
Telling me who I’m supposed to be
Way too good at camouflage
Can’t see what I am
I just see what I’m not
I’m guilty ’bout everything that I eat
(Every single thing)
Feeling myself is a felony
Jedi level sabotage
Voices in my head make up my entourage’Cause I’m a black belt when I’m beating up on myself
But I’m an expert at giving love to somebody else
I, me, myself and
I, don’t see eye to
Eye, me, myself and
I Oh, why do I compare myself to everyone?
And I always got my finger on the self destruct
I wonder when I love me is enough (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I wonder when I love me is enough (yeah, yeah, yeah)Why am I always looking for a ride or die?
‘Cause mine’s the only heart I’m gonna have for life
After all the times I went and fucked it up
(All the times I went and fucked it up)
I wonder when I love me is enough (yeah, yeah, yeah)Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
I wonder when I love me is enough
I wonder when I love me is enough Haters that live on the internet
Live in my head, should be paying rent
I’m way to good at listening
All these comments fucking up my energy’Cause I’m a black belt when I’m beating up on myself
But I’m an expert at giving love to somebody else
I, me, myself and
I, don’t see eye to
Eye, me, myself and
I Oh, why do I compare myself to everyone?
And I always got my finger on the self destruct
I wonder when I love me is enough (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I wonder when I love me is enough (yeah, yeah, yeah)Why am I always looking for a ride or die?
‘Cause mine’s the only heart I’m gonna have for life
After all the times I went and fucked it up
(All the times I went and fucked it up)
I wonder when I love me is enough (is enough)Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
I wonder when I love me is enough
I wonder when I love me is enough I’m my own worst critic
Talk a whole lot of shit
But I’m a ten out of ten
Even when I forget
I-I-I-I
(I’m a ten out of ten, don’t you ever forget it)I’m my own worst critic
Talk a whole lot of shit
But I’m a ten out of ten
Even when I forget
I-I-I- Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
I wonder when I love me is enough
I wonder when I love me is enough Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
I wonder when I love me is enough
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah

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