Today I begin the real work with me. I’m in the transformation phase of this process. My slate is clean and I’m able to write the story however I choose. It’s exciting and scary at the same time. Every decision I make no matter how small or large will greatly impact who will emerge from the cocoon. It’s been a while since I’ve done something for me and me only as I usually do it for my family. While this is also for my family (even if it’s smaller now), I’m mainly doing it for me. I am accepting all of the wonderful things I deserve. I am running with open arms in the direction of my happiness.
Over the next few weeks, I am going to fully embrace this stay at home business. I want to lose another ten pounds (little goals), continue my meditation and manifestation techniques and really hone in on what I want to do for a career. I want to start my own business but…what? I have so many ideas so I need to narrow it down. People really came out of the wood works to support us with my Nana reminding me that even when I feel alone, I am not. So, I want to talk to more people, live chat and just connect with my tribe. I need them right now.
I’m trying to find a new place to live and learning how to budget and do things on my own. I’ve done it before and hopefully it’s all like riding a bike, something you don’t forget how to do. I’m smiling so much…especially after talking to Nana today and she was back to herself. Yay! Life is not easy it’s not been a straight shot for me. I have accepted everything, I am taking responsibility for the part I’ve played in everything and I am praying for the best. I know God has big plans for me.
Happy and Healthy 2020, if nothing else that I planned for this year happens, these two things will. I have butterflies in my stomach and an eagerness I’ve never felt. For years I’ve felt like I was on the edge of the mountain, almost there….almost there and now I can feel that it’s going to happen, I’m going to take that next step into the next chapter of my life. The people that want to be there will be there, the things that are meant for me will find their way to me. I’m ready! Wish me luck, positive vibes and lots of love.