Oh man, this not being able to go to sleep because I can’t shut my brain off thing is getting old. I didn’t get to bed until after 3am this morning only to wake up to my alarm at 7:30am to make sure Miah was up to do his schoolwork. AH!
So, I am reading a book and today it was talking about aspirations and outcomes – motivation and other things. Motivation is fleeting and unreliable, aspirations and outcomes are the end game but, what behaviors can we make, amend or get rid of to reach those aspirations? Aspirations are what we are being guided to as that allows more flexibility than a definite outcome. I wrote a list of aspirations and then was asked to choose one and write down behaviors or things I could do to help me reach the aspiration. I chose to Love Myself. I wrote down 10 things I could do and then I was asked to put it out to friends, family, social media – If you could get me to do any behavior to help me love myself, what would it be? If you’re reading this and have a suggestion, I would love to hear it. I am supposed to write it down along with the rest and later on in the book I will be taught how to weed out some to reach the ones I can do. Act like you have a magic wand and can do anything…. out of the box thinking is appreciated. I’m still trying to think of more as well.
My mind is still all over the place today and I’m missing people that I love being stuck in the house. I’m fighting to remain upbeat and positive and trying my best not to be hard on myself during my moments of weakness. The book also suggested a vision board so I can visualize my aspirations, it should be easier to help manifest. I guess I will be getting a poster board and some markers when I go out next. Yay!
Know that I am doing good. I am more certain of who I am in this time of uncertainty than I have ever been. I’m just ready to get back out there, to fight for what I love and make our dreams come true. I have so much more to go, hard work to put in, and lessons to learn. Can you believe that excites me?
Anyways, I am going to get back to reading… if my thoughts don’t overtake me. I had to keep reading the same sentences over and over because my thoughts were overwhelming. If you think you have something to add, I’d love to hear it.